From top to bottom, my journey!

Our friends at online gay adult store Esmale share an article by John, an Esmale customer, on his sexual journey with his partner.

Note: this article includes explicit adult content and names have been changed.

September 2022

I'd always considered myself a total ‘top’ as a sexual partner. My university days were exclusively active as a top as I came to terms with who I was and my sexuality, but moving to London and living on my own I found a new sense of personal freedom and acceptance; I felt able to try new things. I dated a guy, Kieran, who I'd met online and, for the first time, I was matched for size and strength. I'm a pretty big guy, lift weights four times a week and had always seen myself as your typical alpha male. As did Kieran. He liked his wrestling, and we'd sometimes spar in the bedroom and despite matching me for strength, he had a far superior technique.

One Saturday evening, in early summer, while messing around, I let my guard down and he'd managed to pin me down. I was totally helpless, unable to struggle or free myself from his hold and heavy breath on my face. It was incredibly sexy to be powerless in his grasp and for the first time ever I wanted a man to “do” me. He was happy to oblige and was pretty rough with me, as I've been to others in the past. He didn't spare my feelings as he relentlessly ploughed away and I knew I would feel it the next day. I made him pause and get more gay lube halfway but I knew that there would be no let up until he finished. It felt good to feel totally his and I got off on having him inside me way more than I thought I would. After he finished we lay on the bed catching our breath. He told me I was too tight for how he liked and he wanted me to work on that for next time. It felt strange being told what to do but it felt good. Kieran was very compelling.

Better get prepared!

The following morning we went online and found Esmale, the online adult store. They had a section for gay sex toys and I selected a couple of dildos. Kieran told me that he wanted me to work up to one that he would choose, selecting a black toy with considerable length and girth. It would be a challenge. He told me where to buy poppers to relax me and I also checked out some other relaxant tablets. They all arrived in the post quickly and discreetly and I couldn't wait to try them out. That evening I did my weights after work and hurried home. After a quick bite and protein shake I had one of the tablets and took myself off to my room. I'd sent Kieran photos of what had arrived in the post and he said he wanted updates at every stage. With plenty of lube the first one went in slowly but steadily. It felt good inside and I shared a pic. It was really horny doing this for him via message. He told me to take a video, counting down from twenty, each number completing a slightly wider circle with the toy. He sent me a video of him stroking his hard weapon which gave me inspiration to go wider. I loved him getting off on it. He made me do this six times in total, each time I used the poppers and applied slightly more pressure. Kieran told me that it was making him so horny.

And more.

The following night I was to use the next size up; then at the weekend he'd get to use the toy that he chose on me. I was to take it all and then take him. Eager to get going, the next night I skipped the gym and came home early. The events followed in much the same way as the previous night, except that Kieran demanded we did a constant video chat with him in control of what went on, instructing me what to do. I was loving it, and could tell he was too. After six countdowns with tonight's gay dildo, I could see the desperation and excitement in his face. He said he couldn't wait until the weekend and needed the toy he'd chosen in me then and there. He said he was coming over. He arrived within ten minutes and after I buzzed him in, he came straight to my room, kissed me, pushed me onto my back and picked up the final toy. It was a struggle and took some time but I loved him doing it, he was firm and just patient enough with me. This could get addictive. Counting down from twenty I could feel every motion bringing me closer to climax and as I reached zero I could feel my toes curling and my brain flushing. Kieran stroked my sweaty forehead, ‘Good lad’ he said, ‘now it’s time for you to take me’. Which was music to my ears. Don't get me wrong, I loved it but I need a bit of a break.

THE END

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